Last year was expanding my mind, expanding my horizons, gaining new and empowering knowledge through travel, higher education or through religious philosophical studies. Now in 2011, this new knowledge, this new expansion, is going to be put to use. I am entering a new year.
Love, Love, Love
My love life, my current relationship has been tested for a few years now. My relationship survived and it is sturdy indeed. I know and very sure there is a long-term detoxification going on in my love life. Friendships, however, seems very happy. This year, I want to expand my social circle and meeting significant, important new friends.
Home Sweet Home & Family
The home and family situation is difficult, and this too has been tested in the past year, and will continue to be tested (I guess). My family is the reason why I am live. Mummy, daddy and sister are the centre of my life. This is as it should be; we all have different missions in life. This year, though, my family seems more important than usual. It is hard to say but I have to say. I have to. In the year 2010, I feel cramped in the home and would like to move, but there were many delays, but I just use the space I have more creatively. Creating harmony in the family will require hard work, discipline and many ‘sacrificing’ kinds of acts. And this is HARD! I must be careful about the tendency to depression, avoid it like a plague.
Revolution 2011
Ape yg nk tukar? Here I would like to say, this revolution involve E.M.O.T.I.O.N.A.L feelings only. It means re-ordering of my moods and emotional life. I need to direct and control the emotional body, the feeling body, to bring it in line, to make it act in constructive and positive ways. On a surface level, this aspect shows that I feel ‘unsafe’ in expressing my true feelings and so the tendency is to repress them, and this leads to depression, even greater explosions later on, and often physical ailments. So I need to find a safe way, a non-destructive way, to express my true feelings. Yes, they need control, but it must be done properly. Whatever method I use is not the issue; the important thing is, to apply it.
Aku keliru
Menjadi buntu
Arah yang ingin ku tuju
Rasa resah ku
Kian celaru
Dengan ilham ku tempuh
Aku cuma mahukan
Bayangan resah ku akan hilang
Tapi keadaan memaksa
Menghadapi semua
Inikah revolusi
Atau hanya ilusi
Bagaikan mimpi jadi realiti
Rasional diriku
Rasional dirimu
Penentu masa
Masa depan ku
Adakah masa
Menjadi punca
Diriku dalam dilema
Benarkah anjakan paradigma
Susuli ku terima
Aku cuma mahukan
Bayangan resah ku akan hilang
Tapi keadaan memaksa
Menghadapi semua…