Monday, December 27, 2010

New Year Revolution!

Last year was expanding my mind, expanding my horizons, gaining new and empowering knowledge through travel, higher education or through religious philosophical studies. Now in 2011, this new knowledge, this new expansion, is going to be put to use. I am entering a new year.

Love, Love, Love

My love life, my current relationship has been tested for a few years now. My relationship survived and it is sturdy indeed. I know and very sure there is a long-term detoxification going on in my love life. Friendships, however, seems very happy. This year, I want to expand my social circle and meeting significant, important new friends.

Home Sweet Home & Family

The home and family situation is difficult, and this too has been tested in the past year, and will continue to be tested (I guess). My family is the reason why I am live. Mummy, daddy and sister are the centre of my life. This is as it should be; we all have different missions in life. This year, though, my family seems more important than usual. It is hard to say but I have to say. I have to. In the year 2010, I feel cramped in the home and would like to move, but there were many delays, but I just use the space I have more creatively. Creating harmony in the family will require hard work, discipline and many ‘sacrificing’ kinds of acts. And this is HARD! I must be careful about the tendency to depression, avoid it like a plague.

Revolution 2011

Ape yg nk tukar? Here I would like to say, this revolution involve E.M.O.T.I.O.N.A.L feelings only. It means re-ordering of my moods and emotional life. I need to direct and control the emotional body, the feeling body, to bring it in line, to make it act in constructive and positive ways. On a surface level, this aspect shows that I feel ‘unsafe’ in expressing my true feelings and so the tendency is to repress them, and this leads to depression, even greater explosions later on, and often physical ailments. So I need to find a safe way, a non-destructive way, to express my true feelings. Yes, they need control, but it must be done properly. Whatever method I use is not the issue; the important thing is, to apply it.

Aku keliru
Menjadi buntu
Arah yang ingin ku tuju

Rasa resah ku
Kian celaru
Dengan ilham ku tempuh

Aku cuma mahukan
Bayangan resah ku akan hilang
Tapi keadaan memaksa
Menghadapi semua

Inikah revolusi
Atau hanya ilusi
Bagaikan mimpi jadi realiti

Rasional diriku
Rasional dirimu
Penentu masa
Masa depan ku

Adakah masa
Menjadi punca
Diriku dalam dilema

Benarkah anjakan paradigma
Susuli ku terima

Aku cuma mahukan
Bayangan resah ku akan hilang
Tapi keadaan memaksa
Menghadapi semua…

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

"It's me" - Ameer Rizky

Myself? I tend to mistrust logic. Perhaps rightfully so. For me, it is not enough for an argument or a project to be logical; it must feel right as well. If it does not feel right, I will reject it or chafe against it. The phrase ‘follow my heart’ could have been coined by me, because it describes exactly my attitude to life.

The power to feel is a more direct, more immediate, method of knowing than thinking is. Thinking is indirect. Thinking about a thing never touches the thing itself. Feeling is a faculty that touches directly the thing or issue in the question. I actually experience it. Emotional feeling is almost like another sense which human possess, a physic sense. Since the realities I come in contact with during my lifetime are often painful and even destructive, it is not surprising that I choose to erect barriers, a shell, to protect my vulnerable, sensitive nature. To me, this is only a common sense.

If I am in the presence of people they do not know, or find themselves in a hostile environment, up goes the shell and they feel protected. Other people often complain about this, but one must question these other people’s motives. Why does this shell disturb them? Is it perhaps because they would like to sting, and feel frustrated that they cannot? If your intentions are honourable and you are patient, have no fear. The shell will open up and you will be accepted as part of my circle of family and friends.

Thought-processes are generally analytic and dissociating. In order to think clearly we must make distinctions, comparison and the like. But the feeling is unifying and integrative. To think clearly about something you have to distance yourself from it. To feel something you must get close to it. Once I have accepted you as a friend, he or she will hang on. You have to be really bad to lose the friendship of me. If you are related to me, I will never let you go no matter what you do. I will always try to maintain some kind of connection even in the most extreme circumstances.

Friday, December 3, 2010

Di Mana Kan Ku Cari Ganti

Salam...dah seminggu nenek pergi...Ameer masih rasa sedih...tp ayat yg slalu org cakap ‘yang pergi, biarkan pergi...yang hidup mesti teruskan hidup’...Sbnrnya Ameer masih terkenangkan arwah yg sangat ambil berat pasal Ameer...Dulu masa Ameer nak amik SPM,pagi2 lagi nenek da bangun n bg Ameer kismis,kacang n mcm2 lagi...dulu nenek selalu datang rumah Ameer untuk dua tiga minggu...biasalah Nenek akan pergi ke rumah anak2 beliau mengikut giliran atau kehendak beliau...


Hendak ku nangis,

Tiada berair mata,

Di mana kan ku cari ganti,

Serupa denganmu,

Tak sanggup ku berpisah,

Dan berhati patah,

Hidup gelisah...


Alangkah pedih rasa hati,

Selama kau pergi,

Tinggal ku sendirian,

Tiada berteman,

Dalam kesepian...


Dunia terang menjadi gelita,

Cahaya indah tiada berguna,

Keluhan hatiku menambah derita,

Kini kau jua tak kunjung jelma...


Di mana kan ku cari ganti,

Mungkinkah di syurga,

Untuk tawa berduka,

Menangis bersama,

Selama-lamanya...


Nyanyian:Vince,Ella,Stacy,Ning Baizura,Dayang Nurfaizah,Aizat,Jaclyn Victor,Azlan,Bunkface,Atilia,Shahir,KRU...tribute to P. Ramlee...


Dalam meniti rintangan itu,

Anak2 mu harus bersatu,

Kerna kasih terhadapmu,

Aku kelu diam membisu...


Dewasa seharusnya mengerti,

Yang diusung adalah jenazah suci,

Haruslah kita mengerti,

Kepada dia harus kita hormati...


Jika aku punya kuasa,

Aku jalan dengan sasa,

Tapi apakan daya,

Aku hanya orang biasa...


Kau kekuatan keluarga ini,

Tanpa kau tiada ku di sini,

Aku pasrah engkau pergi,

Semoga tenang di sisi Ilahi..


Gelas yang pecah kini berderai,

Keluarga kini janganlah lalai,

Ziarah beliau di pusara permai,

Agar beliau sentiasa damai...


Ameer rasa puisi diatas byk maksud tersirat yg mungkin golongan dewasa akan mengerti situasi yg terjadi...Ameer xnk tulis byk2 sebab nanti ada yg marah pulak...Tapi realitinya, Ameer xkan biarkan ianya berlaku kepada keluarga Ameer...apa yg terjadi mungkin untuk membuka mata Ameer bahawa Ameer perlu sentiasa berada di sisi mami n daddy tak kira dimana mereka berada dan apa keadaan mereka...Ameer sebagai anak kandung dan anak lelaki haruslah bertanggungjawab n prihatin terhadap kedua ibu bapa...Ameer bangga mempunyai ayah yg prihatin dan menemani nenek tidur serta menjaga nenek ketika sakit...Ameer terharu kerana Ameer rasakan nenek memerlukan perhatian sebegitu ketika beliau di saat2 akhir...Ameer juga sgt admire mami sebab jadi menantu terbaik n dapat berbakti kepada nenek di saat2 akhir beliau di muka bumi ini...Mami n daddy dah lakukan yang terbaik sepanjang nenek berada di rumah kami...I love mami,daddy n nenek so much!


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